A letter to my COmmunity!

 Hey there! 

First let me thank you! - Thank you for being a digital friend of mine and on this journey with me. Also thanks for reading, it’s very hard to get people to consume intentional content these days. In other words  Do people READ anymore?

It’s been about four years of “The Curly Bee” and it really feels like I’ve grown to become family with many of you, especially since we really spend more time with our online friends than offline these days. I thank anyone who has made me apart of their life and daily routine. - I also find it extremely sweet how invested many of you have been in my life and lifestyle.  For the record I don’t think I would have ever made it though Business Economics without any of you. Lol

Since launching this blog I’ve explored deep parts of my life and created soo many beautiful memories both on and offline. I’ve had the opportunity to network with people all over the world, traveled to beautiful places, supported my family, worked with large brands, got into the best shape of my life, and the list just goes on. Most importantly, I created a space to share my inner spirit, life, and soul with the world.  - Along the way the most important lesson I’ve learned is, the brand checks and free stuff are nice, however it has never outweighed the feeling I get from someone across the globe messaging me “Thank You for just being you” 

So Immense Gratitude to you all

As we say goodbye 2020 I am writing this letter to close a chapter of my life in order to begin manifesting and “building” a new one.

I’m sure you all have seen a shift in my content, engagement, and just overall consistency as “The Curly Bee.” - Truth is, after many years of feeling intense pressure on my shoulders, while trying to keep some sanity - The Great Depression set in and I crashed.

In 2019 I was finally at the finish line with the Fancy degrees, academic honors, Sorority, six-figure gigs, a passion side hustle, snatched body. - I mean it was everything I worked for right, but instead of feeling happy I was sick to my stomach, losing more pounds than I can count, and crying myself to sleep.

For the first time my Internet persona matched my offline life - There I was existing without any true purpose, inspiration, or intention. Just living with momentum……Depression is the absolute worse place to be for the Type A personality.

God Bless my siblings, friends, and Sorority Sisters for picking me up.

Fortunately I do not have the privilege of sitting still for too long, I must keep going and heal on the way.

On the last day of 2019 I took on the project of Reconstruction. I committed to spend an entire year reflecting and being VERY intentional about EVERY single step I take forward in re-building myself. I closed ALL of the windows, blinds, and curtains to my life. I then gave VIP tickets to a few people to observe my process. It was literally like I checked myself into my own DIY healing facility. I promised the Universe I would sit still, in exchange for guiding me through this process.

I changed absolutely everything about my lifestyle, asked myself very HARD questions, re-read my ENITRE library, took a sabbatical to Arizona, found new hobbies, and even made some great new friends. For the very first time in my life I decided to focus on JUST ME and it was indeed the most fulfilling, exhilarating, yet terrifying experience of my life. NOW we can add a pandemic on top of it all.

On this year long journey there’s one day I remember vividly. I was driving through the desert on my way to Tuscan and ended up in TEARS! I had no idea why I was crying, but now that I reflect, the scene was actually perfect for it lol…. Imagine you are in a car alone driving two hours through the beautiful desert and Whitney Houston is literally screaming to your soul. - I mean, What else do you do? …Exactly, You stop the car and you just CRY your heart out and beg for an answer. You beg for it to stop, you beg and plead to feel inspired again.

That month away in Arizona something clicked, something about that cry felt different, the sun, the silence, and my spirit suddenly felt alive again. For the first time It felt like I was exactly where the Universe needed me to be. I was at Peace and ready to move again.

All along I was off course, The Universe wanted me to STOP and LISTEN!

So, on this very I am closing the Chapter and thanking the universe for the lesson

Back in 2016 I entered this internet world as “The Curly Bee” to escape a life and reality I was not happy with. It was my outlet to share and inspire through my own process of BECOMMING. I was on a journey and to be honest, I’VE ARRIVED! I AM HERE, The Bee is fully EVOLVED. -

My phone and tripod has literally been on my window for you all to observe me nurturing my family, study, dance, workout, and the list goes on. Happy to say, I am no longer that Bee and it’s time to Buzz in a different direction.

I am ready to open back up my window and I hope you can join me on this journey to building my new path and purpose here. (Click here to Let me know what you want to see from me next)

“Bonnie, The Bee”